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I dropped three pounds in 24 hours. How did THAT happen? It wasn’t all this Wii exercise.

I don’t think that I can take this anymore.
I have lost two friends to this empty, tired war.

There is nothing left to do
when the dreams catch up to you.

Everyone I love will leave
but I keep loving anyway.

Every time my heart will grieve.
No one quite knows what to say.

Angel with wet wings on dry land
ever light and ever willing
Thank God for those who try to understand
lost my sight, the job is killing
…me ….so lonely

I don’t know how long I can breathe this scabby air.
The world around is bleeding and no one seems to care.

We are set on tick
but we never talk.
We are all wound up
but we never walk.

Why can’t we all JUST FUCKING GET ALONG?!
fine, I’ll finish my song.

Angel with wet wings on dry land
ever light and ever willing
Thank God for those who try to understand
lost my sight, the job is killing
…me ….so lonely

CM 3-6-2007

I need a pianist for the lounge act of my dreams. If you can play the tunes, we can get the gigs. Are you my ivory tickler?

If I stay on my diet, by next Halloween I will be merely chubby. Ah, to be that cute, chubby girl again. It is a mere 35 pounds away. It is quite shocking actually, when I think of how much I have already lost. I have found some of the best ways to make frozen dinners better too. You can make a diet Kashi meal 400% better and only add 40 calories by adding chopped sun-dried tomatoes! I am talking a WORLD of difference here. The Kashi meals are only about 300 calories as they are anyway and fairly decent, but they need a little kick. H.E.B. has a whole section of organic, dried fruits and veggies that are low cal. and my new best friends. Now, how I am going to survive Disneyworld without gaining weight, I am not sure. However, I know that you average about 8 miles a day there so I am sure I will be burning more than I take in.

I finally sat down and watched the film and first off, Obi Wan looked pretty hot in it. A little less hot but more poised in this film than he does as Ewan McGregor. Maybe it is because when Alec Guinness is playing Ewan McGregor playing Obi Wan he is having to play it as an Englishman playing a Scotsman playing an Englishman. That has to be difficult, especially with a last name like Guinness.

Anyway, the film really is as good as people make it out to be. It does leave you wondering what the hell happened to Zhivago’s wife/son/dad after they were exported back to Paris. I like to think that she became a famous clothing designer and had a torrid affair with a very buff man who could please her in ways Yuri never could. As a result, Sasha (the son) grows up to be a male runway model and shakes it until he breaks it. The father dies of old age after having all the french tobacco he can smoke.

I do kind of have a couple of questions. I think I am supposed to believe that Lara was raped by Komarovsky (Rod Steiger), but that had to be the wimpiest rape scene I have ever seen. I saw the seduction cause them was some purdy dresses and he might have been a big guy, but a knee to the nuts is a knee to the nuts. So, what was up with the limp hand and sigh…talk to me people. Anyway, jerky for sure, especially after being called a slut. But rape? I dunno. I suppose the Colleen jury is still out on how sympathetic I feel for Lara. I mean she schtooped a sleeze for nice dresses…ok I can understand that, but on the other hand – she schtooped a married guy behind the wifes back…

For that matter…Zhivago just blatantly lived that “love the one you’re with” lifestyle in the middle of a civil war until his heart gave out. I have to say if we all could do this, we would have a great freaking world. Unfortunately, it goes against basic human emotions to be this evolved. Now I am going to have to read the novel, because it was not completed until the mid 50′s and I wonder if it has that underlying 60′s free love feel to it.

One more thing, every man should master the Omar Sharif stare. Look into your woman’s eyes like Omar. I mean the guy is not all that good looking to me, but can he give you a look, ohhhh yeah.

Oh how to tell the MSU alumni association that I have no intention of giving money to sponsor football? Oh I know, NO! I received a call today asking me if I would like to be a sponsor of the fighting mustangs football team. I informed the poor student victim that when I joined the university, I did it because they did NOT have a football team at the time so I knew more money would be spent on academics and fine arts. Therefore, I had no intention of supporting a team that took money from the departments that I cared about and frankly did nothing for the school.

This year, however, I did send a girl to MSU for voice to study under Dr. Maxwell who to my surprise is still teaching there. I hope she is doing well and learns the foundation of the Psyche and Soma system.

I look into your plastic eyes and see forever.
I know you the moment you are on my hand.
No one is closer.
No one knows me better.
Your heart is my own.

I build you, we are one together.
I fail you, I am crushed.
I am confused, I ask and you answer to my surprise.

My oldest friend,
we have grown older
and the years have brought words
to explain us.

But, nothing can separate felt from flesh
or feeling from foam and fur.

I adored New York. I walked so much. I ate so much. I did so much. I must announce that if you are going to go to New York, Clell Tickle is the ultimate tour guide. He is a realtor and an actor so not only does he know all kinds of trivia about the city, but he knows where loads of things were filmed. I lucked out so hard that he was not working and had time to show me all over town. I don’t think that I could thank him enough for everything. He showed me little treats all over the city. I had oysters for the first time at the Oyster Bar in Grand Central Station, I saw the ferris wheel inside ToysRUs, I walked on the big piano in FAO Schwartz, I stood in awe at the Twin Tower memorial, I ate pizza and cannolis in Little Italy, I bought fake designer sunglasses in Chinatown, I saw a show impromptu off broadway show that was fabulous by seeing a sign in Soho on a wall. Clell really knows how to show a gal a good time. I tell you, ladies Clell is a keeper.

I also saw one of my dearest friends Dave when I was out there. He and his wife, Rifat live in New Jersey with their darling son Benjamin. Ben is way too cute for words and Dave is doing quite well for himself. I was more than delighted to see them all as it has been several years. They will always have a place in my heart.

So in one little trip, I went to Hoboken, Ridgewood and some other parts of NJ and all of NY and I saw 2 shows. One called “At Least It’s Pink” which was quite hilarious and the broadway hit “Avenue Q” which was in no way short of phenomenal. It is the show with the puppets which explains my attraction.

*Gits out her shotgun and stands in front of the Texas flag as rousing music plays*

The great state of Texas was built on iron and grit. This sovereign nation within itself is an institution of pride and freedom. The ancestors that blazed a trail to Texas were hearty folk with steel backbones and true hearts. They were not the bookish, quiet types that would sit in libraries and build legislation. No. They were gun totin’ wild men with fire in their hearts and hot blood in their veins. You can’t expect the descendants of such strong willed folk to think before we act. Native Texans are doers and we are proud to be so. And, unless you live in the panhandle, Texans are not used to anything white coming from the sky.

When the first ice pellets hit my window, I knew we were being attacked. I got my Colt 45 and ran outside. I was shocked. Cold things were flying at me from all over. I began to buck and scream! “Holy Jeezers! It must be the terrerists!”, I screamed at my husband who began to calm me down. As a person who travels for business, my husband has seen this kind of weather before and reassured me as to what was happening. I had help. Other Texans were not so lucky…*sniff*

and I never will. I could never forgive him for the death of my Wash.

I have been watching the only season of Firefly again and dealing with my celeb-crush on Alan Tudyk (a.k.a. Pirate Steve). If you just want to know how versatile this actor is, he is also the voice of Sonny from “I, Robot” and has played Lancelot in Broadway’s “Spamalot”. He is tall, cute, can sing and dance and has a great sense of humor. He is not married and he is 35, so sure he is probably gay but I am married so how does that interfere with this fantasy?

I am starting to really understand the novel Misery by Stephen King! Mr. Whedon, I USED to be your #1 fan until you killed my Washy in the movie… OK. so don’t worry Joss, I am not coming after you. I am just going to pout a little bit more and wish I could give you handfuls of money to make more episodes. Of course, that would be after I gave handfuls to Dan Milano for more Greg the Bunny including a role for Alan Tudyk. hee hee. I wonder if Alan has ever worked with puppets…